Horoscope for the day:


Relationships are always your number one priority, but at the moment, that's going to go double. Your lucky other half -- or prospective other half -- will enjoy all kinds of wonderful attention, all aimed at ensuring that they know not only how deeply you care, but also that those feelings aren't going anywhere. It's a given that your feelings will be returned, but it might be nice to have that conversation anyway.



damn true la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

His birthday falls on the 13th......

prove to me tat u r worth all those hours of waiting
prove to me tat u r worthy of my tears
prove to me tat u r worthy enough for me to spend my wkends at home
prove to me tat u r worthy enough to be my last
prove to me tat u mean it when u say " i love u "

歌曲：一了百了


歌手：信乐团


一辈子两个人在一起
你说要加个或许
不是你不喜欢甜言和蜜语
只是你比较实际
两个人一辈子不分离
你问我好在哪里
不是你不期待永恒的恋曲
你说最美的爱情叫做回应
为何连分手都不跟我争吵
撂下一句话就想逃跑
让我爱难平恨难消情难灭梦难了心难过
你却放手一了百了
离开我你说是为了我好
可知道这句话伤人不少
就算忘不了没有大不了
反正一切都不再重要
我的心既然你全都不了
何必再继续让彼此困扰
斩断纠缠的爱
从今就一了百了




歌曲：死了都要爱


歌手：信乐团 专辑：信乐团



死了都要爱
不淋漓尽致不痛快
感情多深只有这样
才足够表白


死了都要爱
不哭到微笑不痛快
宇宙毁灭心还在


把每天当成是末日来相爱
一分一秒都美到泪水掉下来
不理会别人是看好或看坏
只要你勇敢跟我来


爱不用刻意安排
凭感觉去亲吻相拥
就会很愉快
享受现在
别一开怀就怕受伤害
许多奇迹
我们相信才会存在


死了都要爱
不淋漓尽致不痛快
感情多深只有这样
才足够表白
死了都要爱
不哭到微笑不痛快
宇宙毁灭心还在


穷途末路都要爱
不极度浪漫不痛快
发会雪白土会掩埋
思念不腐坏
到绝路都要爱
不天荒地老不痛快
不怕热爱变火海
爱到沸腾才精采



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就连自己许下的诺言都做不到，我又有何资格要求你对我天长地久呢？

i have always wanted someone who can chat with me on the fone everyday ( almost everyday also can la), coz i needed this kind of attention. i have always wanted someone who will bring me home to show his parents tat i m his gf coz i needed tis kind of assurance. now tat he had fulfilled both conditions, i m still complaining. i guess nthing is perfect.


yes, i will be staying home tonite. no more cigarette smell, no more alcohol taste.


"maybe u haven't find the rite guy who can make u stop willingly. oni the 1 u realli love can make u do anything and everything for him with no qualms. =) "

他说：“我这种人，不应该有男朋友的。”


" i shld stay single, go club every wkends and get to know more guy frens. or maybe i shld get a bf who loves to club as much as i do, i will be happier. " 真的是如此吗？but yingwen says it's ok to go club, juz tat i have to know my limits.


“其实，不只你一个爱club, 我也和你一样。为什么我可以不去，为什么你不行？


i will let u noe when i have the answer.

歌曲：安静



只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴
安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪
我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份
包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多
我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份
安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃
你是因为我太爱你

my digital cam's gone! it's only 4 mths old, rest in peace my dear. it was flooded with water and pls dun ask me what happen, coz i have absolutely no idea wat happened to it. anyway, i hope the memory card's still ok. coz i wan the pictures!!!!!


"if u really want to quit, there isn't a need for the last" . He was so right. i went dbl O again on friday. the nite was great with Lynn, Sebas, Ben, Kaihong and Christina. i got kinda high on alcohol, hahaha, tink i tok more den i ever did in sch! hahaha. (a bit kua zhang la) anyway i got drunk at the later stage and depression struck again. i have no idea why my tears fell, i was supposed to be happy.


"if i ever go club again, tat's when i choose to let our r/ship go". i told him this. to tell u the truth, here i m saying i wan to quit clubbing, another part of me is tinking where i shld be at this coming friday. hopeless. wat the hell am i tinking? is all the attention driving my sanity away? i started to club when i was 18, still can remember my first trip to Zouk. hahaha, i got super drunk after 2 graveyards. i got drunk quite a few times in my clubbing history, got super drunk after 2 e33 at Zouk, got drunk a couple of times at Mdm Wong and blah blah blah. i can hold my alcohol ok well, of coz i cant cross the limit. but my kick always come very late, i can stop drinking for like 1, 2 hours and den before i knew wat happen, i m flat.


4 yrs plus of clubbing, haven't i played enuff?

歌曲：我爱你


歌手：s.h.e


从你眼睛看着自己
最幸福的倒影
握在手心的默契
是明天的指引
无论是远近什么世纪
在天堂拥抱或荒野流离


我爱你
我敢去未知的任何命运
我爱你
我愿意准你来跋扈地决定
世界边境


偶尔我真的不懂你
又有谁真懂自己
往往两个人多亲密
是透过伤害来证明
像焦虑不安我就任性怕
泄漏你怕所以你生气


我爱你
让我听你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你
我想亲你倔强到极限的心


我撑起所有爱围成风雨的禁地
当狂风豪雨
想让你喘口气
被划破的信心
需要时间痊愈
梦想牵着怀疑
未来看不清
就紧紧地拥抱去传递
能量和勇气


我爱你
我想去未知的任何命运
我爱你
让我听你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你
我想亲你倔强到极限的心


哪里都一起去一起仰望星星
一起走出森林
一起品尝回忆
一起误会妒忌
一起雨过天晴
一起更懂自己
一起找到意义
让我爱你
我不要没有你
我不能没有你
绝不能没有你

he changed his status back and it shld be done 2 wks ago. i have been expecting it to be done everyday. but now tat it is done, i felt so lost. Empty.


原来，我还是被他征服了.

昨晚的一幕幕，我已经不记得了。我不记得我看到了谁，我不记得我听到了什么。但我还记得我睁开眼睛看到你的那一刻，我还记得你和我说话的声音。



我真的好怕我自己，真的好怕好怕。我已经不认得自己是谁了。你还能接受一个迷失方向的我吗？为什么总是要失去了才懂得他的重要呢？绕了一圈，最后还是回到了原点。



我在昨天晚上死了。

1st jan = i announced to the whole world tat i m offically attached. did i ever mention tat i m offically single now? yes, i m single. this stupid circle of being attach and den breaking up is killing me. it's draining all my sanity away. i m so tired, so damn tired.


i was talkin to my sister on the fone juz now and i looked out of the window. suddenly i had this thought that tis world is so beautiful. shit, why am i having thoughts like tat?? it feels as though i m going to die the next moment.


i m sorry i made u come all the way. i dunno y i asked them to call u. i dun even noe who made the call. wat's over is over and we are history now. isn't it sad tat love can be gone in an instant? haha, it's all me and me.


i m feeling so sick now, i wan to puke, i wan to cry, i wan to die. no, i can't die this way. i have a long bright future ahead of me, i have a caring family and frens whom love me so much. i muz be strong for them, i muz be happy for them.


but why aint my tears stopping?? my heart is aching so much, so painful tat i really cant bear this agony. it's painful coz i made all those who care for me upset again. i made my parents worry, i made them sad. i m supposed to be happy ytd, y did my tears fall????


yes, it's over and get over it. i let a guy who really cares for me go. i let him go.


i'll be fine, really.

歌曲：kiss goodbye


歌手：王力宏


baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手
彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心
好好欣赏你的美


幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交
叉挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走去跟随


每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔痛苦难以释怀
每一次kiss you goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白


----但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味
我终于明白

美美 hor??? the pic kinda blur...... but it's ok. i will definately remember to bring my digital camera along the next time round!!!!

my v-day present! a bouquet of flowers, a bear and a DKNY watch. din take any picture of the watch coz it didn't come out too nice on my hp. haiz, my fone not that gd at taking pictures. anyway, the bear very cute lo, can record voice inside.

the pretty Lims!!!!! that's us before our trip to Dbl O. took a few pictures there but i m still waiting for Sebas to send them to us.


decided to concentrate on making more guy friends and not juz sticking to one, cause i juz realised alot of my guy frens are juz merely jerks. of coz there are nice ones but the ratio of nice to not nice.... cannot make it lo.


sian sian sian, most prob i will be dateless tml. but who cares, i m fine with being home on V-day.


To someone: i tink u know who u r. pls dun be mistaken with that msg i sent the other day, i didn't send it on purpose. It meant nothing. really.

thanks Lynn for the company on Friday........... i was soooooooo #%@# tat day! hahaha, no word is good enuff to express my excitement, my happiness!!!!


went Dbl O with Lynn, Sebas, Benedict and my god sister on friday. muz apologise to Sebas first, sorry for that "who drink the fastest" challenge with Benedict. if there's ever a next time, i wun challenge with him, i will challenge with YOU!!!!


will update u all tml in sch k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i m soooo looking forward to c u all in sch tml!

What Can I Do by The Corrs


I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong


What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there


There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If I don't try and I don't hope


What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there


No more waiting, no more, aching...
No more fighting, no more, trying..
.Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just going to let it fly

是时候我该学习如何一个人生活了。


是时候我该勇敢地追求自己的梦想了。

情不知所在，一往而深。


生者可以死，死可以生。


生而不可与死，死而不可复生者，皆非情之至也。

lynn bought me a pink money holder!!! it's so me rite???? 好美，好喜欢。envy me or not??? hehehehe......


big news!!! i have decided to not club anymore. i m seriously tired of those meaningless trips to Dbl O, wat's the point of having all those guys' attention when i can't get that one attention i've been waiting all along.
but before i end this chapter of my life, i will be going to club with Lynn for juz one last time. well, this will be our first and last time to go clubbin together. hahahaha. 不醉不归 ok??? i m so excited!!!!! our final appearances at the nitespots! wah, machiam like retire like tat.



有时候一个人无忧无虑，没有感情上的负担，也是一种快乐。

i saw Him at Dbl O tonite and it was so nice of him to help me get rid of the china man. well, even though the china man persisted but still, he did the best he could. i was so surprised tat he agreed to give me his attention to show tat china man i aint interested in him at all.


it was a super lousy clubbing nite, the china guy followed me ard like shadow. he refused to move away even though my fren scolded him, he refused to move away even though i pretended to show interest in someone else. irritating fellow.


a couple of my frens msg to ask me how's my nite. i replied it was lousy because of tat irritating china man. both of them called me back immediately to ask me what happen. i shall repeat myself again, they called me back IMMEDIATELY.
he told me he does not like to chat on the phone at home because he had to share his room with his bro which means there isn't any privacy. i understand his problem. but he's bro aint in Sg rite now, cant he juz use his hp to call me to check if i m ok?


seriously i agree that there is a difference between casting aside and letting go.