# iPhone

look! i have gotten a iPhone as well. teehees...

well, actually Dearie got it from China. it's still iPhone!

it's actually quite user friendly, and light. i like the colour as well. i love white handphones! hmmm, i dun mind keeping it if Dearie is kind enough to give it to me for free. but i tink he is more likely to come up with some evil plan and try to sell it to me. for maybe...$50/-????

Dearie had gotten sick 2 weeks back and it seems like he couldn't find any med at home. soooo.... i tried to prepare a medicine box for Dearie. it includes charcoal pills for diahorrea. normal and extra strong panadol. panadol for flu and some plasters as well. Dearie doesn't has gastric prob, so that wasn't included.

but this box has been lying on my table for a week! i kept forgetting to pass it to him. GRRRR!!!

i had a beautiful dream last nite. i dreamt that we were going away for holidays and we were happily packing our luggage. (i tink i m the one doing most of the packing) but we were really happy in the dream.

i wan to go on a holiday with Dearie!!! Dearie, will u make this dream come true?

i brought the misery upon myself.

i guess i would have to start all over again.

we were still toking about what kinda of apartment we would like in future. i was still telling him i would want him as my future husband. i know it's still kinda early to tell coz we had only been together for 4 mths.


but i really love this man. and it just feels like i would never have enough of him. whenever i m in his arms, i really wished this could be forever. whenever he is out of my sights, he will always be in my thoughts.

everything i do, every place i go. they reminded me of him.

this is my last chance to make things right. my last chance to prove to him i m worth everything. just like he is worth everything to me.


Dearie!!!!! i will work hard to make u fall in love with me again.




i want to spend my lifetime loving you. i really do.

i never knew it would be so difficult, i never knew it really took a lot of courage ...



to say this:





"if u are definate about not wanting to with me anymore. if u really feel that it is impossible for you to face me anymore. if u are sure that you do not want to give us another chance to work things out. if u can give me a definate answer, i will let you go"








the reason i chose to hold on, the reason why i refused to accept the separation is because i believed tat he still has some feelings for me.





but after thinking it through, i gave him the choice to end this relationship. if this relationship is going to cause him more misery, i will let him go. if i cant makes him happy, the least i can do is not to hurt him further.








不是我不够爱你，而是我不想伤害一个我爱的人。


但没有你的日子，我知道我学不会。






Dear, thanks for giving us another chance. thanks for not giving us up.


Dear Dear, i promise you. i m worth the 2nd chance.

this is the first night without my Dearie.


i could only say please. i could only pray. coz i noe nothin is within my control.


fear. nothin else.


i have always laugh at them for being so miserable. coz i never knew it could be so miserable.

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life






it's kinda late this time...... hmmmm.

i tink Dearie is someone with very high EQ.


2 wks back, we were supposed to have dinner at the Singapore Swimming Club. we had no idea that they only cater to members on weekends. so we went into the cafe, got seated and even had our orders taken. only when we were asked to produce our member card, den the waiter told us that we cant have our meals there. so we had no choice but to hunt for another place for dinner.

initially, i did feel abit sore that they din inform us when we were ushered in. but Dearie was totally cool over the issue. and i was really amazed by how he handled the situation. i m sure if i were with my exs, they would definately kicked a huge fuss or even made a complaint.

anyway, a fren was telling me he got into a fight with 2 of his colleagues today. apparently he shouted at them for talking too loudly when he was on the phone with his boss. the 2 of them initiated to "settle" outside, blah blah blah.... ( i tink u guys can guess what happened)

different ppl will different ways of handling the situation. having self-control does not equat to being a coward.

i can totally imagined how Dearie would react if he was in this fren's shoes.



heehees, my Dearie is like an old wise man... with many words of wisdoms. i really enjoyed talkin to him, listening to his advices. sometimes the truth does hurt, but at the end of the day i know he meant well. i am so lucky to have this man to guide me along.on the other hand, i tink he's kinda unlucky to have me as his gf. i dun seem to be able to understand his work, let alone giving him advices.

but i will always be around to give him my support, i will always be there if he needs someone to be my his side.

anyway, Dearie is very sick. i really hope he gets well soon. it pains me to see him go through the sickness. i would rather be the one who is suffering. =(


Dear Dear, get well soon k! ur dear misses you alot!

i hope i didn't overuse these 3 words......



but i really have the urge to let you know my feelings,



Dearie, I LOVE YOU!



i m really blessed to have you in my life and i would definately prefer a life with you.



a life without you??? let's not talk about it.

the heavy downpour this afternoon seems to have taken away my faith.




"why are you so quiet today?" my mum asked me over dinner juz now.




i forced a smile. i dun wished to further elaborate, i dun wan to break down for the 2nd time today.

i want to cry in his arms, i want him to wipe away my tears, i want to be his baby for once.


for him, i shall learn to be strong. i will not cry before him.



but tonite, can i be allowed to be weak once more? i just want to cry myself to sleep.

# Dearie, i just love the way you are

Don't go changing,
to try and please me,
You never let me down before,
Don't imagine,
you're too familiar,
And I don't see you anymore.

I would not leave you,
in times of trouble,
We never could have come this far,
I took the good times,
I'll take the bad times,
I'll take you just the way you are.

Don't go trying, some new fashion,
Don't change the colour of your hair,
You always have my, unspoken passion,
Although I might not seem to care.

I don't want clever, conversation,
I never want to work that hard,
I just want someone, that I can talk to,
I want you just the way you are.

I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew,
What will it take till you believe in me,T
he way that I believe in you?

I said I love you, and that's forever,
And this I promise from the heart
I couldn't love you, any better,
I love you just the way you are.

I don't want clever, conversation,
I never want to work that hard,
I just want someone, that I can talk to,
I want you just the way you are.




i feel like taking a break, a break from everything. i feel like goin somewhere, somewhere on my own. somewhere i can be myself, somewhere i can do whatever i want.

i need some space, some time to relax and do nothing. my workload is not as little as it seems to be, its juz that i dun like to bring my work along when i am with you. we dun get to spend much time together, and i prefer to give u every min, every sec of my "free" time.

forgive me for my little temper here and there, forgive me for being so sensitive. i have always feel that i m not good enuff for you, that's why little things affect me so much. i know you would probably love the Serene who is more confident of herself. you know that's something i have always been lacking of. but ever since i am with you, i have learnt so much. i m so lucky to have you to guide me along and i promise i will work hard.

i will work hard for myself, i will work hard for you and i will work hard for us. there is a long road ahead of us, we are in this together. i will accompany you in every step you take.



i had a beautiful dream last nite, it was so beautiful... i wished i wouldn't have to wake up from it.

Feeling drowsy after taking the flu med, cough syrup (yucks!) and panadol.


As usual, Dearie's out clubbing again. i always try to stay up and wait for him to call when he gets home. i trust him completely ( i really mean it. i have no idea why but i really do trust this man alot), juz tat i wan to make sure he's home safely.

dun tink i will able to keep myself awake till 3am tonite. i shall go to sleep and wake up again at ard 2am.



i miss you Dear... cant wait to be in ur arms again.



i want kiss kiss!

Dear Dear,

ur baby is sick again. =(


come, give me hug hug. so that i can get well soon.






hmmmn, toking about body art. i have been giving some thoughts abt lasering off my tattoo. well, dun be mistaken... i still love my tattoo very much and it is still beautiful in my eyes. (even though Dearie says its ugly) and i didnt have any regrets abt having one on my body.

anyway, it was a big decision when i got it done den. i guess its another big decision to decide whether or not to laser it off.

i told Dearie, " when u marry me, i will laser off my tattoo."

his reply," Siao! "



well, i m serious.

i wan the whole world to know that......



I MISS MY DEARIE!!!






why do u have such power over me.....but i dun seem to have any on you.

# 10th observation ends today

yeah! my last observation ends today, which means i can go full force to finish up the chapters and help the devils (uh...hmmm, i mean angels) revise for their SA 1 examination.


i was so nervous about my last observation, i literally stayed up for the whole of last night... preparing n rehearsing for the lesson over and over again in my mind.


anyway, i tink the lesson went quite well today. my hardwork seems to pay off, at least it managed to capture their attention for one whole period. i spent a couple of hours reading up on "animals that sweat. animals that do not sweat... blah blah blah and so on. sounds like a Science teacher rite?






its only mid-week and i m starting to miss my Dearie. =(

i wan to get a dog for my Dearie. he prefers a Schnauzer .



i have absolute no idea on how, where, what......


help??? anyone???

# Loving you is an extraordinary feeling of happiness



it's our happy 4th month anniversary today! yeah! =)


Dear dear, we have spent 4 mths of our life together and each day is like a gift to me.


i love to cuddle with you in bed.
i love to watch u when you do ur work.
i love to wake up in your bed.
i love to go breakfast with you every Sunday morning.
i love to hug you and watch you sleep.
i love to go Ikea with you. ( so that i can pretend we are shopping for furniture for our own house)
i love to watch you smile.

i love doing everything with you...




i love you.

i miss you ...




Loving you
Is easy because you're beautiful....
Making love with you
Is all I want to do....

Loving you
Is more than just a dream come true....
And everything that I do
Is out of loving you....

No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring....
Stay with me while we grow old....
And we will live each day in spring time....

Because loving you....
Has made my life so beautiful....
And every day of my life
Is filled with loving you....

Loving you....
I see your soul come shining through....
And everytime that we....
Oh I'm more in love with you...

it's tuesday! and den it will be wednesday, den thursday and den finally friday!


i wan to bring Dearie out for dinner this wkend leh ... i hope he is willing to step out of tamp. =p

# Strange and Beautiful

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart,
I'll see.

To me,
you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me
but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

Yeah... Yeah...

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the frist thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep
'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me,

yeah... yeah... yeah... yeah... yeah...



the wkend is coming to an end again, n sunday is my personal me-me time. a time for me to do anything i wan at home, alone. a time for me to reflect on the week tat had past by so quickly.

i made lunch for Dearie ytd, hainanese chicken rice and lotus root soup. nothing fanastic i know, but i woke up at 7am juz to prepare the dishes wor. and for dinner, i dabao chilli crab, seafood soup and brocolli wif oyster sauce for Dearie. it made me feel so house-wifey and the feeling is great! it really feels wonderful to do all these lil things for the one you loved. it may be something really small. but being able to do something for the man i loved, there's nthing i won't do.


i noe nthing is forever, and i cant promise you eternity. people do change, feelings do fade. but this moment, i know my feelings for you is true. this moment, i really wish to hold ur hands and walk the path towards our future together. and i noe that this moment would last, i wan no one else but you.

somehow, i have a feeling... tis moment would last for a long long time.


Dearie, can i cast a spell on you and make u love me forever?

my world crashed today. my passion is being questioned, the flame seems fragile.


i m weak. i hate myself for being so weak.




let's cheer to the lousy week that is finally coming to an end and hopefully a better one awaits me.



* this post had nothing to do with Dearie.

# Happy Day


i m in a really good mood today. Firstly, my observation for my p4 class went quite well. Secondly, my tuition student gave me something to hang on my hp. and lastly, the very thing that made my day---- Dearie msged to say that he miss me!!!! woohoo!! my Dearie misses his gf. it's been a long long while since he msged me "i miss you". =)






anyway, the weekend will be here soon, i m sooo looking forward to a full day of rest.



i m really physically exhausted. i blacked out in school day. For that split second, i thought i was going to collapse. i managed to get hold of myself and headed back to the staff room for a hot drink and also to rest before my lesson starts. i guess it would be quite a disaster to faint during assembly, in front of all the teachers and students.




i want to hug my new bolster to sleep!!

i am so smart to leave my keys at home, and i only realised it when i reached my door step. nw i have to wait at a nearby fast food restuarant for my next tuition session.

stupid me.



200 days have passed. (i got so bored... i started counting)

do u remember the first time u held my hand? do u remember the first time we kissed? it was on ur birthday. 24th Nov 2007, at Butter Factory. it still feels like ytd, i could almost feel the moment again. it was sweet, it was really sweet to be in ur arms the whole nite. it was really beautiful. i will never forget that day of my life.

do u remember the first time u held my hand? do u remember the first time we kissed? without the influence of alcohol? 13th Dec 2007. u took my hand when we were crossing the road to eat my favourite Bedok mince meat noodles. u kissed me when we were in ur car, at ECP. it was sweetest moment of my life. at that instant, all i felt was happiness. i was so happy that it happened, but at the same time... i was as afraid that it will go away any moment.





we have spent 200 days together, i hope we will be able to continue on and on.

this bracelet juz made my day. =) .

one of my tuition student gave it to me. sweet.

sometimes it gets so tired, i really feel like giving up. 2 sessions of tuition on every tues, thurs and fri. one session of tuition on every mon and wed. i need to wake up at 530am every morning and my day will only end at 10pm almost everyday.


sometimes i get so exhausted, i will just cry to make myself feel better. sounds crazy, but i really need some channel to vent my frustration.


i love Saturdays! sat is the only day i get to give myself a full day off, off from work and off from tuiton. and Saturday is the only day i get to spend it with Dearie.



super lovesick this week, my love sickness started from the very moment we parted on Sunday. hais, sometimes i really hate myself for being so emotionally dependent on him.



Dear Dear, i m so addicted to you.



HAO XIANG NI AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!