29th Feb 2008



i dun mind missing my wkends just to have Dearie back in Singapore soon.








the moment u left, i start to feel a part of myself missing

# i miss you already


(updated at 10.46pm)

Dearie just called from HongKong! teehees, that makes me the happiest girl on earth now!


i cant believe the missees for Dearie starts from the very moment he msged to inform me that he is going to board the plane. i know he will only be away for 5 days, but 5 days without hearing Dearie's voice, 5 days without any msg from Dearie. it's like 5 years to me..... that's torturing.


i m glad to have all my lesson plans and observation stuff to keep me VERY occupied over the wkends. i will have tons to do because my first observation by my NSC falls on next friday! how come the others get to have theirs after the march holis??? humph! at least i can spend my march holis in peace. BLEAH!!! pls wish me luck for my observation next week.







have u ever miss somebody so much, it makes u cry?




i did.

it's only the 2nd day of attachment and i can already feel my body falling apart. i need some time to adjust myself to the new morning alarm ringing at 5.30am.

it's only the 2nd day of attachment and i m already tempted to cancel my tuition assignments. i am quite stressed up with all the lesson plans and observations piling up. but i m sure i m much more den this, i m much more den someone who gives up easily. dreams will always remain as dreams, unless i work hard to make them come true.

probably some words of encouragement can help to keep me going or help to lift me up whenever i feel down.





nvm about all those complaints, i m damn looking forward to friday! i m so going to make full use my wkends to have a good rest. =)



* a song for you *

Endless Love

My love, there's you only life
The only thing that's right
My first love, your every breath that I take
Your every step I make
And I
I want to share all my love with you
No one else will do

And your eyes
They tell me how much I care
Oh yes, you will always be my endless love

Two hearts, two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun
Forever
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms
And love
I'll be a fool for you
I'm sure
'Cause baby you, you mean the world to me

Oh I know I found you in my endless love
Oh and love, I'll be that fool for you
I'm sure
That you know I don't mind
And yes, you'll be the only one
'Cause no one can deny
This love I had inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love, my endless love

Dearie, if there's only one thing that u should noe, just remember this......





i love you.

my belated V-day pressie from Dearie

i m going to use it for my First Day of School tomorrow!

Ladies And Gentlemen We Are Floating In Space

All I want in life's a little bit of love to take the pain away
Getting strong today, a giant step each day
I've been told only fools rush in, only fools rush in
But I don't believe, I don't believe
I could still fall in love with you

I will love you till I die, and I will love you all the time
So please put your sweet hand in mine, and float in space and drift in time
All my time until I die, we'll float in space just you and I
So please put your sweet hand in mine, and float in space and drift in time

I'll love you to death, I guess that's what you get
And I don't know where we are all going to
Love don't get stranger, it is what it is
And I don't know where we are all going to
Everything happens today, and that's what you get
And I don't know where we are all going to




this song just got stuck in my head.....


All i want in life is just a lil love, to take the pain away. Getting strong today, a giant step each day.

sometimes i really envy the closeness between Dearie and his sisters. i miss my sister, i really miss her alot.

其实，我的心也有吵着想要你陪的时候。
其实，我的眼泪也有想要你来擦的时候。
其实，我的疲惫也有想要让你知道的时候。


但每一次我都忍住了。。。因为我不想让我的依赖成为你的负担。

在对的时候，遇到对的人。

我就在对的时候，遇到了你。

# No entry on V-day celebration

well, there won't be an entry on my V-day celebration because there isn't any. there also wun be any entry on my belated V-day celebration because there isn't any. In short, i didn't celebration Valentines Day this year.

as long as 2 persons are in love with each other, anyday and everyday can be Valentines' Day. heehees needless to say, this theory obviously applies to Dearie and Me! =)

# My hands' for writing, not to serve


i hate to admit this, but age is really catching with me. it's been ages since i last worked as a waitress and guess wat?? i worked part time as a server at the restuarant TRN's working ytd. it was fun to work with my bestie again, but i was damn shag after only 4 hours of work.

waitressing work aint easy. i broke 3 glasses! but the boss was kind enough to spare me fr a scolding. the presentation of the food looked really tempting , i would love to go back as a customer the next time i step into the restuarant.




i would definately prefer to be serve den to serve.

# The Day after V-day

haha! guess i m not the only one who didn't get to celebrate v-day with my bf. "Famous" blogger Xiaxue suffered the same fate as well! wahahahahaha!!!!

but the only difference is, she gets to celebrate her belated V-day with Mike today. whereas, i m stuck at home... damn shag after all the e-learning assignments, tutorials and tuition.




and just one more difference ----- i wun be having a belated V-day celebration. BOOOOO!!!

# Happy Valentine's Day

heehees, since i have decided to not prepare homecooked dinner for V-day. i shall make some chocolate cookies for Dearie instead.

the ingredients (missing from picture, chocolate chips and butter)

beating the butter and eggs

checking if they are done

fresh from oven

coz i didn't mould the cookies into heartshape...... so i have to try to "cut" them one by one. very clever hor. pls tell me u can c that they are in heartshapes.

my end product

Dearie, i know V-day is just like any other day to you, no reason to get all excited over it. And to me, the day just provides me with the a reason to meet you.

# Won't Go Home Without You

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?
"Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake
Oh The weight of things that remain unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?
"Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
It's not over tonight

Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

# i started a joke

I started a joke, which started the whole world crying,
But I didnt see that the joke was on me, oh no.

I started to cry, which started the whole world laughing,
Oh, if Id only seen that the joke was on me.

I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,
And I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that Id said.

Til I finally died, which started the whole world living,
Oh, if Id only seen that the joke was on me.

I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes,
And I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that Id said.

til I finally died, which started the whole world living,
Oh, if Id only seen that the joke was one me.

# Happy Lunar New Year


我不知道是否应该去他的家拜年，他不问，我也不敢开口。



真是矛盾。。。

# Every Time I Close My Eye

Girl, it's been a long, long time comin'
But I, I know that it's been worth the wait
It feels like springtime in winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven has opened up it's gates for me and you

And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too

Girl, I think that you're truly somethin'
And you're, you're every bit of a dream come true
With you baby, it never rains and it's no wonder
The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just a blessing that I have found somebody like you

To think of all the nights
I've cried myself to sleep
You really oughtta know
How much you mean to me

It's only right that you be in my life right here with me
Oh baby, baby

sometimes, just sometimes... i wished that u dun mean that much to me. coz everything that you do, everything that you say, they affect me.

# You Are........

"Sometimes I try to count the ways and reasons that I love you
But I can't ever seem to count that far
I love you in a million ways and for a million reasons
More than this I love you as you are
More than this I love you as you are

You are my inspiration, you are the song I sing
You are what makes me happy, you are my everything
You are my daily sunshine, you are my ev'ning star
Ev'rything I'll ever need or want, that's what you are
Ev'rything I'll ever need or want is what you are

You are my thoughts when I'm awake, my dreams when I'm asleep
You are the reason for my smile, you are the words I speak
Every role I play in life you play the leading part
Ev'rything I'd ever hope to find is what you are
Ev'rything I'd ever hope to find is what you are

You are my inspiration, you are the song I sing
You are what makes me happy, you are my everything
You are my daily sunshine, you are my ev'ning star
Ev'rything I'll ever need or want, that's what you are
Ev'rything I'll ever need or want is what you are

You are...
You are..." - Dolly Parton






and you controlled my every emotions.

# dream or reality?


i had this dream abt me asking him this question just the other day

Me: "so if we ever become official, how will i noe tat we are already official?"

Him: " i will let u noe den "


i was damn sulky when i woke up, coz it means that we are still not officially together.


but i decided to post him the same question ytd... heehees. here's his answer

Him: " i tot we are already considered as official ? "



wooohooooo!!!! i m a VERY happy girl indeed.