Friday, January 30, 2009

i have been giving it some thought and i have decided to laser my tattoo away.


well, i have never regretted getting the tattoo... in fact, i still love it alot. but i guess, it's time to let go of those memories.


i am not sure how much it would cost, should be at least $1000/-. hais, i can buy a Gucci bag with that sum of money or pay half a term of school fees. anyway, i will see how things go after the consultation.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

my UniSim's assignment was dued on Tues. haa, i din even know the assignment exist.


thank God the blackboard was down and everyone was unable to hand in their assignment. which means i still have time to complete and hand in my work.



in the meantime,

my marking continues to pile up!


however, i m reluctant to cancel ANY of my tuitons.


Monday: 9 to 3pm ---- Work
7 to 10pm --- School

Tuesday: 9 to 3pm ---- Work
7 to 830pm -- Tuition

Wednesday: 9 to 3pm --- Work
4 to 530pm - Tuition
7 to 10pm --- School

Thursday: 9 to 3pm --- Work
8 to 930pm- Tuition

Friday: 9 to 3pm --- Work
4 to 6pm --- Tuition
7 to 830pm - Tuition

Saturday: 9 to 1030 --- Tuition

Sunday : 10 to 12pm -- Tuition
2 to 4pm ---- Tuition
7 to 830pm -- Tuition





i need some retail therapy... a nice manicure session sounds good too.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

dearie, can i be ur xiao nv ren?



=)

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

finally got to meet Dearie today.



and i had no idea how much i miss him until i saw him walking towards me.








dun ever talk abt leavin me again. dun ever talk abt breakin up again.


i will give up everything to prevent that from happening.


i love you dear. i really love you so.

Friday, January 23, 2009

i m fucking nervous about the CNY celebration later.





another attempt to be the emcee.




my hands are freaking cold!






anyway, my colleague commented that i have a very fierce look.



hehes, tell me what do u tink... ( i m trying to calm myself down)

Thursday, January 22, 2009

i need a stick.
I asked her to stay, but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
The words that would mend
The things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe it

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of her breath, I'll never get over
The noises that she made kept me awake
The weight of the things that remained unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe it
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Whoa, oh, oh, oh
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Whoa, oh, oh, oh
Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
Whoa, oh, oh, oh
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
I won't go home without you






part of me died the moment you decided to walk away...

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

feeling incomplete.




without u, i will not be able to survive.
it took me more den 1/2 hour to get my make up done today.




the reflection in the mirror was hideous.





7 more hours before i can end my day. i need my room.





i m feeling so messed up, so fucking angry with myself... at the same time, i felt so lost.



i needed him like us needing oxygen.



i wun be able to survive.




i dun ever want to feel this way again.

Monday, January 19, 2009


i trimmed my fringe again... 3rd time this month i tink.



* btw, tat's my work station... damn messy!

Saturday, January 17, 2009

i won't be able to live a life without you.





but i will have to learn to deal with that, when the day comes.

Friday, January 16, 2009

dun ask me why, but i m fuming with rage.
dun ask me why, but i seriously tink i m going crazy.



n i dun tink it's healthy.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

hold my hand, hold it tight.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

the mtv sucks, but this is one of my fav techno song.





is there anyone out there who can hear me?

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

# A song speaks a million words

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Oooooooh oooooh
What do i got to do to get you in my arms baby
What do i got to say to get to your heart
To make ya understand how i need ya next to me
Gotta get ya in my world cuz baby i can't sleep!

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you have you ever needed something so bad
Breaks you apart inside
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Oooh Have you ever, have you ever
Loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at (just can't sleep at night)
Try to find the words but they don't come out
Have you ever
Have you ever ever ever
Ohhh have you ever?


Tuesday, January 06, 2009

# Happily Ever After?


how many times have u picture urself spending the rest of ur life happily ever after with that so called special someone, but den reality says that u n him gonna end up in a bitter breakup.



how many times have you met the prince charming, thinking that he's the one, but den reality tells you that there's gonna be many "the one" after "the one".



do u noe what i m toking abt? Haa, i myself have difficulty understanding those words.





hais...dun bother.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

i dun feel like sleeping yet, but i m damn sleepy after 3 cans of Asahi.





*grumbles*

Friday, January 02, 2009

i stood by the window just now n found the tv addict my sis mentioned in her blog. i wonder what tv programme is he/she watching...



boyfriend is clubbing at butterfactory tonight.


i dun like it.


i dun like the thought of him drinking and having the chance to meet other girls.




i wonder why i m feeling so insecure nw. muz be the pms. the cramp is killin me.





i miss my boyfriend. i miss Dearie.
first day of sch was pretty fine, except for my very bad cramps.




i hate it.




1/2 hr more to go before i can head home and flood myself with painkillers.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

# 1st day of year 2009


goodbye to 2008, hellos to 2009.



i had a wonderful 2008, no complaint at all. of coz, i did meet some downs along the journey but i managed to pick myself up... and continue to move on.


Dearie and I became official in January.

I graduated from NIE in July.

i managed to survive my first 6 mths of working life.


*contented*


i hope that 2009 will be a peaceful year, with more ups and lesser downs. and i definately hope that it will be a fruitful year for Dearie, for me, for our relationship and for all my love ones.



Happy New Year to all! =)