It isn't easy being in love with you and not being able to see you ever again.

There are times when I'd give anything just to be able to gaze into your eyes or hold u in my arms, even for a few seconds.

I always feel incomplete, like a part of me is missing, when we're nt together.

I know that, right now, this is how things have to be.

But that doesnt make it any easier to bear.

Everyday without you just reminds me of the joy you add to my life,

the joy that I'm missing.... a lot.




So don't forget that I love you,

that I'm thinking of you.

and that I'm counting every minute until we're together again.

it's been awhile since my last proper entry.


i hope he will remember his promise about giving me a chance to talk next week.





a chance... just one chance. that's all that i need.