执迷不悔

这一次我执著面对
任性地沉醉
我并不在乎
这是错还是对
就算是深陷
我不顾一切
就算是执迷
我也执迷不悔


别说我应该放弃
应该睁开眼
我用我的心去看~去感觉
你并不是我
又怎能了解
就算是执迷~就让我执迷不悔


我不是你们想得如此完美
我承认有时也会辨不清真伪
并非我不愿意走出迷堆
只是这一次
这次是自己而不是谁


要我用谁的心去体会
真真切切的感受周围
就算痛苦就算是泪
也是属於我的伤悲


我还能用谁的心去体会
真真切切地感受周围
就算疲倦就算是累
只能执迷~而不悔

Finally the weekends will be here soon, had 2 tests this wk. din really study and needless to say, i wun do well for both of them.


"cant belief u all still have the guts to not study at this time, it's really first time in history. pls leave if u all really dun wan to study"


i was affected by his words tis time.


i m sooo looking forward to my last fri nite with Lynn tml, guess we muz really get down to our notes soon...................


ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


mood swing


AGAIN

“见到他，我变得很低很低，低到尘埃里，

但她心里是欢喜的，从尘埃里开出花来。”

对的人


你问在我心中
是否还苦脑
那次受伤
否决了爱的好


谢谢你的关照
我一切都好
一个人
不算困扰


爱虽然很美妙
却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼


爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现
在眼角


那次流过的泪
让我学习到
如何祝福
如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到
与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要
是一种对照


能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚了时候
我就算已经预备好
放手去爱
海阔天高

雨水滴落，等到太阳出来了，它们就会蒸发掉，变成了云朵。直到累积够了，雨又会再下。这一切都是一个不会停止的循环，重复了一遍又一遍。


如果生命也可以如此一样，能够重新一遍，想想看那会是多么好。


但无论有多少个哀求，生命是不可能重来的。就算有千千万万个不愿意，我们还是必须经历生离死别的痛苦。如果人生注定要有这一切的痛苦，那么，独自一个人是幸福的，是快乐的。


眼前的一切模糊不清，也不见得是件坏事。把东西看得太清楚，也只会让自己更加难过。何不让自己永远陶醉在这模糊的一刻，心情也许会更加愉快。


有着雨滴与我同行，和我做伴就已经足够了。有这些雨声做为音乐，做为安慰，我也感到满足了。我真不愿再经历失去自己在乎的人的痛苦。说我不肯面对现实也好，说我在欺骗自己也好，要是真的能把不快乐的事都抹清，我愿意永远都留在这自己一个人的时刻。

这场战我肯定会输。


到最后一定是我带着眼泪离开。

he's gone. GONE.

From This Moment On


(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness
and sorrow, for better or worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)


From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on


From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on


I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on


You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on


the song for my wedding....... ( if there's ever one)

i really miss u.........

Wedding Vow - Traditional

I, (Bride/Groom), take (you/thee) (Groom/Bride), to be my (wife/husband),

to have and to hold you from this day onward,

for better or for worse,

for richer, or for poorer,

in sickness and in health.

I further promise to love you and cherish you,

and be faithful to you for as long as we both shall live

你走以后
只剩下回忆
你走以后
只拥有孤寂
思念在黑夜里化做泪滴
寂寞在歌声里无声无息


你走以后
又回到过去
你走以后
爱你的人在哭泣
只有星星知道我的秘密
可是永远都无法告诉你


如果今生能和你在一起
我愿忘掉生命中的一切过去
可是现在你已离我远去
只有在泪水中回忆

一个不曾从我心中离开过的人


我知道我是不会在梦里见到你的，因为也许你并不知道这世界上还有一个我在为你流泪。不过这样也好，你也会少一个牵挂。


如果今天死的是我，你是否也会为我落泪？其实答案是什么并不重要，因为如果今天死的真的是我，我可以亲自问你。


如果到了那里，我们可以永远在一起，我会愿意随你一起去。


但这一切都只是个如果。。。。。。。。 我会好好地活下去


i will c u in heaven one day......

i m so damn ashamed of myself.


我吃得下，喝得下，笑得出。我算是什么朋友？


I M THE WORSE DAMN PERSON EVER ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!



he's gone.................. forever


我好怕自己有一天会把他给忘了。。。。。。

we didn't work out den, we got pretty close but i spoilt everything. i was attached.


he was my bf for a day, his present for me on my 22nd birthday. i will never ever forget that day.


his touch, his kisses, his hugs.......... the warmth of his body, the smell of his breath. i melted in his arms.

A ring creates a never ending circle that symbolised eternity. A never ending circle of love.

M : " dun worry so much, eveything can be solved "


solve???? how can things be solve now??? he is dead. this is it.............. wat else do u wan to solve??? nothing can be solve here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


dun worry??????? i m not worrying!!!!!!!!!!!!! wat is there for me to worry??? i m not worrying....... i m dying, my heart is aching................ i cant take this.............. this is really too much...... really too much for me to bear.

Tears in Heaven


Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong
And carry on
'Cos I know I don't belong
Here in heaven


Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I'll find my way through night and day
I just can't stay
Here in heaven


Time can bring you down
can bend your knees
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please


Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure
And I know
There'll be no more
Tears in heaven


Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Would it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong and carry on
'Cos I know I don't belong
Here in heaven.

我好累，好想睡一会儿。但每当我一闭上双眼，我就会想起他。


这真的不是一场梦吗？我好想去他的葬礼，但我又不想确认这是个事实。如果这真是一场梦，就让我快一点醒过来好吗？


快把我从这恶梦中唤醒！！！！！！！！！！


i was telling Lee, i used to have this thought--- if i were to die, pls tell Desmond i still like him. but i guess, if i were to pass away nw, i can say it to him myself.


“你一直都没从我心中离开过。”

17th March 2006

Desmond Chew Teck Kwang

can someone pls wake me up from this terrible nightmare? i won't be able to c him ever again. the thought of losing someone forever............ pls tell me this is all a dream, this isn't true, this isn't happening. he had passed away ytd. someone i used to like or even love so much.


yes, 我爱过他


u'll always have a place in my heart.



this is all a dream, things will go back to normal when i wake up tml. nothing has happened.


我的心真的好痛。。。。这是一场梦。。。。

suddenly, nothing seems to matter anymore.

MY not-so-interesting Night Safari adventure

i m so surprised that the Night Safari can still hold on, it's almost exactly the same as the first time i went there. tink that was many many yrs back, when it first opened. the animals are still slping, the place is still very small, the tickets r still expensive. i wonder wat's the tourists' views of our Night Safari. disappointing???? interesting????

*i wonder*

haha, i din take any picture coz there's nothing much to see. the animals r almost the same as the ones in the zoo n they r all hiding in the shadows. so y waste money go nite safari??? go zoo if u really wan to c the animals. anyway, i hate the idea of a zoo. the poor animals, have to stay in such a place that man stooopid stooopid create to look like their natural habitats. u tink animals so stupid meh??? of coz they noe they r exhibits, why wan to torture them like this?? ok, to justify the purpose of having a zoo :

1) to educate ( so that ur child noes how a lion looks like )
2) prevent extinction (they might not survive in the wild)

aiyo, of coz they will die in the wild la, it's the circle of life ma. predator eats prey n blah blah blah........

*wonder*

yes, maybe it's time to be single n go hunt for cute PE teachers when i go up to NIE in july. dun worry, i will make sure these PE teachers have cute friends as well. den we can double date!!!!!


T, S, and den J. it's really time to rest. i've fallen again.


AGAIN.


J : "maybe i m not the kind of guy u wan after all"


Me : "maybe i din try hard enuff but i m tired"


i tried to stop my tears this time, but they aint listening to me.



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Horoscope for the Day:


Your flirting muscle could use some exercise -- get out and spread some charm today.
The heavenly energies on duty at the moment are all in very nice positions, most especially for your sign. It all boils down to at least one more wonderful day, and one more wonderful evening, too. Better stock up on all the things you'll need to create the ambiance you're after: Say, candles, bubble bath, massage oil -- oh, and don't forget the music and the 'Do Not Disturb' sign from your last B-and-B adventure. Better make a couple of phone calls, too -- to the friends who'll be wondering where you two are.

wah........

(Everything I Do) I Do It For You - Bryan Adams


Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you


Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you


There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way


Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you


Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you


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my Favourite song since Primary 4.......wah, that was like more den 10 yrs back. still couldn't find any song to replace this song, i still love it alot. it's the sweetest love song ever. "Everything i do, i do it for u"

不想长大

为什么就是找不到无邪的玫瑰花
为什么遇见的王子都不够王子啊
我并不期盼他会有玻璃鞋和白马
我惊讶的是情话竟然会变成谎话


为什么幸福的青鸟要飞的那么高
为什么苹果和拥抱都可能是毒药
我从没想过有了他还孤单的可怕
我突然想起从前陪我那个洋娃娃


我不想我不想不想长大
长大后世界就没有花
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远又笨又傻
我不想我不想不想长大
长大后我就会失去他
我深爱的他
深爱我的他
已经变的不像他


我不想我不想不想长大
长大后世界就没有花
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远都笨又傻
我不想我不想不想长大
长大后我就会失去他
我深爱的他
深爱我的他
怎么会爱上别个他


为什么水晶球里面看不出他在变
为什么结局没欢笑而是泪流满面
我愿意在他回来前继续安静沉睡
但他已去到别座城堡吻另一双嘴


为什么对流星许愿却从来没实现
为什么英勇的骑士会比龙还危险
我当然知道这世界不会完美无暇
我只求爱情能够不要那么样复杂


我不想我不想不想长大
长大后世界就没有花
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远都笨又傻
我不想我不想不想长大
长大后我就会失去他
我深爱的他
深爱我的他
怎么会爱上别个他


让我们回去从前好不好
天真愚蠢快乐美好



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Horoscope for the day:


Your sign is famous for romance, and the full Moon (a super-charged lunar eclipse, this time) is famous for romance. So all you really need right now is a delightfully enthusiastic suitor, which has never been a problem for you. With that attitude, the Moon's phase and the fact that your lucky companion can't help but know how fortunate they are to have been chosen, the evening looks fine. Just fine.



woahhhh, i like my predictions today......

Title: Come What May


Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to furnish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more


Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you, until the end of time


Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day


Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you


And there's no mountain too high, no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may go by
But I love you ( I love you), until the end (until the end) of time


Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day


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i love this song....... even though i noe sweet moments dun last.......

To Ron:


你知道吗？我为你取了一个english name, 猜猜看是什么？ 对了！真聪明！就是 Ron 。 好听吗？haiz, 可惜，我还来不及把这件"event of the century" 告诉你，我们就已变回朋友了。不过没有关系，if u ever thought of having an english name，你不妨考虑这个名字吧。

最近都没有见到“你”，是存心+有意，还是巧合呢？

take care......

i reached sch ard 7.40am tis morning to get my project printed. was feeling quite sick though, super tempted to go home. but being in the company of my 好好 classmates, i felt so much better. we even went to watch 小孩不笨 2 after sch. really enjoyed spending my time with them, so carefree.


but i reached home with tis nightmare awaiting me. A lawyer letter from Starhub. i m not the one owing this bill but since it's under my name, of coz i m liable for the payment. not knowing tat i had already arrange for installment payment juz less den an hr ago, my dad was so furious tat he called Starhub and made a huge fuss. i noe he cared but he juz refused to listen to my explanation. well, this line actually belonged to my ex bf and he had already promised to start paying from this month onwards. i dunno wat's the plan now and this money issue is driving me nuts.


tink i got too worked up juz nw, can feel tat my fever's coming back. my whole body is burning hot.


anyway, i lost the weight i gained last week. guess tat's the only good thing abt getting sick------ can lose weight!

finally!!!! i completed my chinese literature project. as usual, it's a last min work, so pls dun expect much from it.


i m down with a fever n sore throat, my body ached all over. guess it's my retribution for always doing last min work.

I'll never stop loving u by Britney Spears


They say in this world nothing last forever
But I don't believe that's true
Cause the way that I feel when we're together
I know that's the way
I'll always feel for you


From now until forever
That's how long I'll be true
I'll make you this vow
And promise you this now until forever
I'll never stop loving you


There will come a day
When the word stops turning
Stars will fall from the sky
But this feeling will last
When the sun stop burning
All I wanna do is love you
Till the end of times


From now until forever
That's how long I'll be true
I'll make you this vow
And promise you now until forever
I'll never stop, never stop
I'll never stop loving you


It's gonna take more than a lifetime
To give you all the love, (all the love), all the love
I feel for you tonight


From now until forever, ah
That's how long I'll be true
I'll make you this vow
And promise you now until forever
I'll never, never stop
I'll never stop loving you....



very sweet song but it's true tat nothing last forever.

EVERYTIME by Britney Spears


Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?


Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby


I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy


Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small I guess
I need you baby
Everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby


I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry


At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away


Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime
I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

isn't Paris gorgeous?? i love her soooo much. She's pretty, she's sexy, she's charming!!! guess wat??? my GP tutor gonna remember me as "Miss Paris"........ hahahaha, i m so happy.

after more than a month of enduring my toothache, i have decided to pay a visit to the dentist tml. i made an appointment at 530pm. OMG, can i not go????


什么时候我开始让你在我心目中有着那么重要的地位？为了你，我变笨了，变傻了。明明是错的，我也把它当成是对的。明明知道是谎言，我也骗自己是真的。


我总认为爱一个人会比被爱幸福。但到最后，往往苦的会是自己。

him : eh, u r my 9th gf..... not 10th leh. i counted wrongly
me : oh, den u wan go find ur 10th or not
him : ok lo, since u like tat say.......


phone went dead.


damn!!!! wat the fuck!!!!
he told me before tat a fortune teller predicted tat his 10th gf will be the wife and he kinda believed in that fortune teller's prediction.


useless me, i called him back.


me: wat was tat for??
him: u ask me to go find my 10th gf ma
me: (jokingly, hoping to liven up the mood abit) aiyo, u found le den say lo
him: i m with u now coz i dun have a gf, when i found my 10th den i break up with u k.


ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well, he went on to say tat he was juz joking...... he brought me home to c his parents already, tat shows how impt i m to him...... blah blah blah and shit.
i dun care if he's really joking but those words hurt like hell lo. damn hurtful la. insensitive freak!


anyway, my morale damn low now for i m not the 10th gf.

Words


Smile
An everlasting smile
A smile can bring you near to me
Don't ever let me find you wrong
Cause that would bring a tear to me


This world has lost it's glory
Lets start a brand new story
Now my love
You think that I don't even mean
A single word I say


It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away


Talk
In everlasting words
And dedicate them all, to me
And I will give you all my life
I'm here if you should call to me


You think that I don't even mean
asingle word I say
It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away