Mirage: May 2009

you are the missing piece i need, the song inside me

i ended hell week with a day of hell.

another bad day. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

term 2 will be ending in a day's time.

hell month will be over in 4 days time.

yippppeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

all of a sudden, happiness seems so distance.

in search for my smiles, someone muz have hidden it somewhere.

in search for my smiles, i must have misplace it somewhere.

in search for my smiles, someone muz have borrowed it.

in search for my smiles, i muz have lost it.

i m experiencing darkest period of my life. work is driving me nuts, making me question myself over and over again. maybe i m not cut for this job.

if someone were to plot a graph for my daily mood, i tink it's constantly decelerating.

i m dying for some retail therapy (but i just paid nearly $500 bucks for my hp bill! dun ask me why, it's a long and stupid story!) . probably a manicure therapy will sounds good, but my nails are f.short now... no point doing mani. how about some drinks to destress ( like i just mentioned, the stupid hp bill had made me a f.broke lady). maybe i can eat some of my fav food to cheer myself up ( my pants are so f. tight now! i eat alot whenever i m feeling down. which means me double depress now)

how? how? how?

probably sleep and more sleep will do the trick.

# Exams Aftermath

1) marking of all P4 Paper 2 (sentence construction and comprehension!!!)

2) entering of marks for all P4 classes.

3) item analysis for all P4 classes. (there are 9 items altogether for the MT paper)

first paper tomorrow... MY exams i mean.

seriously, i think my brain cells are depleting at a great speed. -_-"""

＃　不知不觉爱上你

wanna share another song that i have been listening to for the past few days.

anyway, stay tune for my next post. Coz Dearie and I are going to cook our own lunch tmrw! actually Dearie will be cookin FOR me, i will just be in charge of eating and washing up. (washing up is the part i dreaded most. =p )

# I'm yours by Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
I like peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
I like one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours,

I'm yours

i am beginning to fall for this song...

# Stranger by Hilary Duff

i kinda like her better with brown hair. HOT!

Nobody believes me when I tell them that you're out of your mind.
Nobody believes me when I tell them that there's so much you hide.
You treat me like a queen when we go out,
wanna show everyone what our love's about.
All wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd,
But when no ones around;

There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too..

Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you?
Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room?
You made yourself look perfect in everyway,
So when this goes down, I'm the one that will be blamed.
Your plan is working so you can just walk away,
Baby your secret's safe.

There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too..

Such a long way back, from this place we arrived.
When I think of all the time I've wasted, I could cry..

There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too..

Then they would see a stranger too..

Then they would see a stranger too...

one of my favourite phrase:

when the party is over,
dun look for me.
I will be gone.

a full day of tuitions ahead of me... i m so going to concuss on my bed the moment i lay on it. come to think of it, it's been ages since i last slept in my room.

-_-""""

very touching scene.

Rach wanted to tell Ross she's still very much in love with him, hoping he would back out from the wedding. but when she saw him with his wife-to-be... she decided to let him go. i guess at that point, she realised that when u love someone, its all about wishing the best for him. and definately love doesn't equate to possession.

i believe this is my 5th draft for this entry, something just isn't right.

"this is my blog! i can write anything i want!"

sounds familiar? that used to be my one of my favourite phrase too. but well, even the famous XX had to remove her entry when things go wrong. so i guess, there's no such thing as writing anything you want.

hais, work's piling up... as usual.

i m dying for some me-me time. (me-me time equals to me spending time with myself) all the stress n pressure is driving me nuts. i have never felt this way before...never. i feel like going away, away from work, away from school, away from the roots of my unhappiness.

my mood went down so badly, i dun tear anymore. and this scares me.

Dearie told me that he finds this picture disturbing, kinda eerie he says. but i can totally feel her emotions now.

i hope the wedding dinner later will be able to cheer me up. i love wedding dinners... they are always so full of joy, so full of love. they are beautiful.

i wonder when will mine be? when can my students start greeting me Mrs Chan?

=)

From me,

To you.

woke up at 5am today... m still marking the compos.

so f.tired.

my eyes aint cooperative today.

2 tuitions after sch. 12 more hours to endure.

-_-""""""

# Early Mother's Day Celebration

to avoid the crowd on Mother's Day which falls on next sunday, we decided to have our celebration one week earlier!

wanted to bring mum to the Laska Steamboat at Telok Blangoh, but ended up at Tajimaya (Japanese charcoal grill) Vivocity. The food is yummy, think my dad enjoyed the whole bbq thingy the most.

tat's Dearie before my parents arrived. other den celebrating mother's day.... it's my Dearie's big day as well. Finally it's his turn to meet the parents.