Happy Birthday to dearest yun n wen... hahaha, one yr older lo. but can never catch up with me la... =(

Yunho and Shaowei send their wishes too...

MUACKS!!!!

bloody hell!! got tramautised by the flasher again!!! after so many yrs of flashing, this fucking idiot still not caught by police yet.

ROAR!!!!!!

damn tat flasher, now i dun dare to go back late by myself....AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cherish Unappreciated

I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
I don't know how much more,
I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
and lately I've been feeling,
Feeling unappreciated.

Woke up this morning and saw your face
And you didn't look the same as yesterday.
I got the feeling that you can't seem to see,
What you want to be.
And lately it ain't been the same at all.
When you're here its like I'm invisable
I still can't seem to see where I went wrong.
Cuz I'm feeling

I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
I don't know how much more,
I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
and lately I've been feeling,Feeling unappreciated.

Lately our house is not a home
You come in, take a shower and then say I'm gone.
what am I to do
With my heart just leave
But my feet won't move
Today is our anniversary
But you haven't even say two words to me


I'm trying hard to give you another chance
But ooh baby I'm feeling
I'm feeling really unappreciated.
You takin` my love for granted, babe.
I don't know how much more,
I can take from you.
You don't do the things you use to do.
You don't even say I love you too.
and lately I've been feeling,
Feeling unappreciated.

Oh when I first met you
I thought you was the most perfect man
That I ever seen
I still don't understand why
You treat me like you do
I use to give into your lust
Now I see the truth
Oh no I don't want to hear it all through
Yea I know I'll still be missing you
But it's not worth the pain
That came from you
You made me feel unappreciated

放生

地点是城市某个角落
时间在午夜时刻
无聊的人常在这里出没
交换一种寂寞

我静静坐在你的身后
你似乎只想沉默
我猜我们的爱情已到尽头
无话可说比争吵更折磨
不如就分手

放我一个人生活
请你双手不要再紧握
一个人我至少干净俐落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸

我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续
结果还是没结果
又何苦还要继续迁就

就彼此放生留下活口
爱的时候说过的承诺
爱过以后就不要强求
从此分手不必再回头
各自生活

曾经孤单加上孤单是爱火
燃烧过你和我
如今沉默加上沉默更沉默
再没有什么舍不得

my eyes were all swollen after a nite of crying... i wonder if the green tea bags really work to reduce them. well, i had put 2 bags into the fridge. will try it later.

anyway, my V3 is finally dying on me. it's time to hunt for a new phone.

this was never my world. i never belong to this place. i shouldn't have even existed.


to those who really care, to those who really care for me. to those who really love me. i m sorry. i love u guys too. i will hold on for each and everyone of u. but if i ever let go someday, pls dun hate me. that's the last thing i will ever want to do.

if u wished for urself to be blind and deaf. den i will wish for myself to be dead. or maybe i will wished that i have never exist. so that u will never have those problems, those pain and those tears.

Ma, i know what i can do to make u feel better. for every negative thing that jie had done, i will have to do one positive thing to give u comfort. if jie were to stay out late, i will have to stay at home. things have always been this way, always.

i can understand how u feel. i noe how u feel. i noe u r worried. i noe u care, i noe that u care alot. u can always vent ur frustration on me, u always did whenever jie makes u upset. but what abt me? i m stress too.

i can see ur tears, but can u see mine? i can feel ur pain, but can u feel mine? my heart is not made of steel. why do u have to say all those things to make me feel guilty?

i m tired. i m really tired. Jas is already driving me crazy. pls dun come any nearer... there isn't any more space for me to step backwards. i will only fall.

CAN World Strongest Dad - Dick and Rick Hoyt Part 2

watch this... touching and inspiring story.

guess i had been missing for the past few days... been busy with my temp job n too lazy to blog anyway. i m currently working at the Motorshow 2006 at Suntec City. hahaha, i m not workin as those car models... i aint tall enough for those jobs lo.GRRRR!!!! i m working as a sales promoter for this company that sells window films.

anyone interested to buy??? drop by at the exhibition before the deal ends!!!!


hais, i m supposed to be in a good mood coz i found a job and it equals to getting paid. but seriously i just dun get it, everytime i m suppose to be rich... i will ended up being broke. to cut the story short, at least i m a creditor now, juz take it as they r helping me save up the money.... HAIS...

things haven't been going too smoothly at home... and there's pretty much nothing i can do to savage the situation. being the one who roughly knows wat is happening but yet had to keep it a secret... really torturing lo!! it hurts me equally as much to see those tears. hais...

be strong k!!! i will be ur POM POM GIRL......

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there would find me
Till then I walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every thing's all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive

And I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone


My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there would find me
Till then I walk alone

RN : " i was tinking, probably u were so upset over Des's death is because he's dead. "

i noe what she is trying to say, meaning i was upset because he's dead and not because i really love him that much.

maybe. maybe not.

but i noe the biggest regret for the "Des and Me" issue is that i never make it to his funeral. i couldn't accept the fact that he's dead den. i thought by not attendin the funeral, i can juz pretend nothing has happened. but i din noe tat by refusing to attend his funeral, there isn't a closure for us. or rather, for me. there will always be this knot, that i will never be able to untie. maybe someday i will, but maybe this someday will never come.


her comment made me wonder whether i really love him that much. love him enough to accept another gal in our lifes. maybe i just wanted to fill the emptiness inside me, maybe i just want to make up to him, maybe i just couldn't let go of our past. or maybe i really do love him. maybe i really do love him alot. whatever it is, that's one thing i noe for sure. i had lost the battle.

my dearest best fren, don't say sorry. it was never ur fault. it was him who couldn't make u see the good that he had. it was him who couldn't prove himself.
and i was the one who chose to leave him. i dun blame u, and i never blamed u. i m the one who refused to walk out of those shit that's surrounding me.


( maybe some may think that i m pathetic, always engaging in self-pity. there's no one who can pull me up except myself. blah blah blah..... and so on........ well, u noe wat? i love engaging in self-pity. i love getting drunk. i love crying myself to sleep every night. i love all these shit that's happening to me. i love torturing myself. don't fucking tell me u noe how i feel, u have been through the same old shit... blah blah blah. coz u r not me! u wil never fucking noe how i feel. )

everyone has their own limits of enduring pain. some may learn to pick themselves up and move on. some may need some time. some may never pick themselves up again. if u belongs to the first category, good for u and fuck off with ur stupid comments... thanks.

hehehe.... coz i m now obsessed with the movie The Covenant. very nice!!! it's a must-watch movie!!!

and the characters inside are called the Sons of Ipswich, got special powers one. so i m called the Princess of Ipswich lo.... coz Daughter of Ipswich sounds a bit weird la.

hehehe, get it??? Pogue is one of the characters in the movie and he's mine!!!! decided to add him in my list.... wahahahaha.... =p

在一个晚上内，才短短的几个小时，什么就有这么多次的情绪起伏？人生就是如此的奇妙吧。


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i wonder y my Princess of Ipswich entry kept vanishing. i wrote that entry twice already! OH NO!! Spencer had cast a spell on my blog..... help!!

my baby Pogue, when will u come to my rescue?


hahaha, a bit mushy hor?? but that's how we usually call each other la.... u all will get used to it.

每一次想你

我发现每一次想你
整个人好像陷入深深深海底
在没有黑夜白天分界时空里
只听到心跳频率声音
每一次我想你
就会发现更深一层解自己
许多事情只是口头上说的轻松而已
但心里岂止牵挂在意就可以

还是爱你
第一次我对自己感到无能为力
离开你是我一生最笨的选择
最糟糕的决定
每一次想你我都会忍不住责怪自己

我还是爱你
虽然朋友都用体贴话语安慰自己
就算第二个爱情再来临在我心里
能给我幸福的人
我知道世上只有你

我发现每一次想你
整个人好像陷入深深深海底
在没有黑夜白天分界时空里
只听到心跳频率声音
每一次我想你
就会发现更深一层解自己
许多事情只是口头上说的轻松而已
但心里岂止牵挂在意就可以

还是爱你
第一次我对自己感到无能为力
离开你是我一生最笨的选择
最糟糕的决定
每一次想你我都会忍不住责怪自己

我还是爱你
虽然朋友都用体贴话语安慰自己
就算第二个爱情再来临在我心里
能给我幸福的人
我知道世上只有你